So I opted to skip the wordless Wednesday today. There's too much on my heart. As I was driving into town yesterday I started thinking about submission. That's a tough word to chew, and it seems to leave a bitter taste in my mouth whenever it is spoken.
On Sunday, we talked about Godly men and women and what that looked like. Submission was one of those characteristics that came up under women. Leadership came up under the guys. Someone recalled a quote about submission for the class. "Submission is ducking when the Lord is about to slap your husband in the face." I laughed about that for a long time. Still laugh when I think about it. Submission is so hard for a woman. Anybody with me out there?
I would probably say that its the hardest thing about marriage for me. I am a stubborn, strong-willed fool. Independent and self sufficient for as long as I can remember. And as women, we're programed to think we know it all, we can do it better, and frankly we don't trust anyone else to get us there. Am I right?
Then it hit me.
I said yes to "the question" he asked, I walked down that aisle and said "I do" to a man I sized up and decided he was the best, decided he was chasing after God with his own heart, and he would make a great leader in our home. Now, I will say that God certainly had a hand in it all, but I thought long and hard about this man before committing to be with him for the rest of our lives. And I think I'm a smart girl, I make pretty good decisions, so if I chose to marry this man, he must be a pretty good one, right? He must be capable. He is a smart guy, he is chasing after God, and he is a fine leader with my best interest at heart. If I would just learn to follow...to submit. To give him a chance to grow as a leader. Even if that means not critiquing his driving...because I'm pretty sure he's not trying to get us killed out there, even though sometimes I act like it. ;o)
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